I Stopped Believing In Love

She will never be HER! Genesis 29:32-35 And Leah conceived, and bare a son, and she called his name Reuben: for she said, Surely the Lord hath looked upon my affliction; now therefore my husband will love me.33 And she conceived again, and bare a son; and said, Because the Lord hath heard I was hated, he hath therefore given me this son also: and she called his name Simeon.34 And she conceived again, and bare a son; and said, Now this time will my husband be joined unto me,  because I have born him three sons: therefore was his name called Levi.35 And she conceived again, and bare a son: and she said, Now will I praise the Lord: therefore she called his name Judah; and left bearing. Leah would never be rachel! She loved her husband but her husband didnt love her. She gave and she gave but it would never be enough! Have you ever loved someone who just didn't love you. Their heart was somewhere else. Somewhere that wasnt you. You could give them anything and everything but it...

                                     Waiting on Redemption! Matthew 25:1 Then shall the kingdom of heaven be likened unto ten virgins, which took their lamps, and went forth to meet the bridegroom . re·demp·tion     deliverance;   rescue.  I collect my coke rewards points. It's a hobby that I have yet there  is a code and then you can redeem the points. Usually when I get the points I like to redeem them right away. Yet lately i've been leaving them around my room and they are waiting to be redeemed. Like these virgins they where waiting for the bridegroom to come and redeem them. 

No Reason to be Jealous If I am With You I am With You! Proverbs 6:34 For jealousy arouses a husband’s fury, and he will show no mercy when he takes revenge. Jealous :feeling or showing suspicion of someone's unfaithfulness in a relationship. The last man i cheated on was when I was 18! After he left me and I gave my life to Christ I never cheated on anyone because I know the feeling of how it feels to be cheated on. It's painful and its a hard moment to come back from having trust issue's. I don't ever want to cause anyone that pain. It's a lingering pain to know that the one you love is with someone else. It's hard for me to even date.My screening process is rough its not oh hey you look good looks are not enough for me.. I gotta know how you act when your angry, your true colors, the real you not the you you try to be just to pursue me! If you have kids no thank you, if you can't support yourself no thank you, ect oh the list goes on... ...

Showing her how much he really loves her again!  Hosea 2:23  I will plant her for myself in the land; I will show my love to the one I called ‘Not my loved one. I will say to those called ‘Not my people,’ ‘You are my people’; and they will say, ‘You are my God.’” When people have rough times in relationships the way they once displayed their love it usually dies. The way they once looke d at you making you feel like the only one in the world. Turns to looks of disappointment. The sweet things slow down. The laughter turns into harsh words. And you wonder where is this person whom i fell in love with because they arent there anymore. The love is no longer displayed. Its not like those things that they once did are gone they just put them away. If they wanted to they could show you this love they once showed you! The love you long for day after day. What if a day came where they loved you again like they once loved you. Turned your tears into joy. The sparkle you once h...

Sabotaging My Relationships!  Proverbs 14:1 The wise woman builds her house, but with her own hands the foolish one tears hers down.  sabotage :deliberately destroy, damage, or obstruct something  I have had commitment issue for a while. You can say I would be the woman who would tear hear house down with my own hands. Sabotaging it because of fear of whats on the other side. Like if a man really loves me its hard to get past that commitment stage the one its cute at first. Yet then I have a million and one reason of why I can't do this even if your amazing!!! Alot of them start with what if...divorce, single parenting, unhappiness, cheating, being take for granted,or them just walking out. Often I want to leave before they leave so the second i think well they are giving up on me inside its not over for me because I wouldnt really go anywhere. I just want to win the fact that the might leave me..and I dont want to look stupid. Yet in the end i do because I sabo...

All You Have to Do is Agree  agree have the same opinion about something; concur. Amos 3:3 Can two walk together, except they be agreed? Today I was Updating a program on my computer. It asked me to accept the terms and agreements. I had to hit I agree to continue the process. If I stopped pressing agree then I no longer got to continue on installing the program!!! When two people are walking together in life they have to keep agreeing that this is what they want. To keep moving forward. If they can't agree they can not work together. No this does not always be a yes man or a yes woman. Yet in order to walk together in life all you have to do is agree! Being Equally Yoked!!   Jeremiah 27:2 Thus saith the Lord to me; Make thee bonds and yokes, and put them upon thy neck, So often in the bible we hear about not being equally yoked. Its hard to walk with anyone who doesnt believe even a Christian. Ive heard God tell me to take steps of faith before with people i...

My Fear of Falling In Love  Philophobia is the fear of emotional attachment; fear of being in, or falling in love Genesis 29:18 Jacob was in love with Rachel and said, "I'll work for you seven years in return for your younger daughter Rachel." Love has always been my greatest fear. I love the idea of love. Yet it is just and idea a thought something you see on tv or something other people can h ave but i cant. I know of the root of why i feared love. My parents, watching the men walk in and out my moms life, the constant kids coming but what about jasmine. Then trying to fill the love void with giving me things to spoil me for the lack that i had. I never believed people loved people it was a lie. I would sleep with men it got to a point where it didn't matter anymore as long as i got the attention i needed to fill my void for the time i needed it filled.I have had commitment issues. Ive even talked to many men having a boyfriend at the same time because I didnt want ...

Yes a Easy Return !!!! Luke 15:20 20 And he arose, and came to his father. But when he was yet a great way off, his father saw him, and had compassion, and ran, and fell on his neck, and kissed him. Easy: without difficulty or effort. When people reconcile and come back together sometimes the returns can be hard they don't go as easy as you want them to. Sometimes you just want the person to come running back into your arms. To accept you again. Yet look at this reconciliation. It was an easy return to how things use to be!!! Someone Who Walk out Your Life is Coming Back 20 And he arose, and came to his father. But when he was yet a great way off, his father saw him, and had compassion, and ran, and fell on his neck, and kissed him.21 And the son said unto him, Father, I have sinned against heaven, and in thy sight, and am no more worthy to be called thy son Its crazy when people walk out your life. You often hope and pray they will come back. Sometimes they don...

Jealousy and Relationships!  Proverbs 6:34 For jealousy is the rage of a man: therefore he will not spare in the day of vengeance. Jealousy : fiercely protective or vigilant of one's rights or possession  Most people people have jealousy. Now the level of Jealousy depends on the person. Some are just to jealous. Their jealousy can lead to people getting hurt. Joseph family was jealous of him a nd his family sold him off into slavery because they were so jealous. Jealousy can cause some painful things to happen. Stab you in the back. Joseph brothers almost killed there brother over jealousy. Yet some people do kill people over jealousy. Think about a man who loves his wife and another man find interest in her his jealousy can over take him. Just as a woman to a man! Sometimes it feels like jealousy is unc ontrollable..

Once Trust Is Broken Its Hard to Get it Back Colossians 3:9-10  Do not lie to one another, seeing that you have put off the old self with its practices and have put on the new self, which is being renewed in knowledge after the image of its creator. Trust gets destroyed by actions, lies, and secrets.  Doing things in which will break someones trust in you. Once trust is destroyed its hard to get back. The person may take things away from you privileges in which they don't think you deserve in their life because they don't trust you to do the right thing. Why should I give you this or these opportunities if I cannot not trust you to do the right thing.  People want to know that your trust worthy and capable to do right by them. Like if im your friend can i leave 20 dollars on the table walk away and it still be there when i get back. Can i know that your telling me the truth and not a lie because you want to do right by me even in the trut...

God hand is over your relationship Ecclesiastes 4:12 12 Though one may be overpowered, two can defend themselves. A cord of three strands is not quickly broken. Today I saw a woman walking her dogs she had two dogs but only one leash. The leash was created so that the dogs would stay together but have enough room to walk without feeling constricted as she held onto only one string keeping them  together. This is how a couples relationship should be they are going in the same direction but have enough room not to constrict them on there path but have God guiding them as they journey. Sometimes the dogs went all over the place and didn't always walk in unity but the owner had them and made sure they Got back on Track like God does with us

Separating??? Haven't you read that at the beginning the Creator 'made them male and female,' and said, "For this reason a man will leave his father and mother and be united to his wife, and the two will become one flesh?" So they are no longer two but one. Therefore what God has joined together, let man not separate" -( Matthew 19:4-6 ). God intended relationships between a husband and a wife to last. Relationships where never meant for divorce. Forever until death do they part. It two takes two to make things work. Two people willing to make an effort. You want relationship relationship comes with action building growing compromise communication love affection. If you give none then its not relationship and it dies. If dont water your plant it dies. If you dont love your children its called neglect. If you dont work on building a relationship it ends. It is a two way street. That sometimes ends because someone stops driving down the same road and two ...

The day I heard God tell me who my husband was is the day i should have ran the other day! This is how I made it to Florida! You would think I would be crazy but no Gods having my whole family to move here. So i heard God correctly. Yet through it I tried to get healed so we could be normal and live a normal life. 

Your Cold as Snow!  Cold :lacking affection or warmth of feeling; unemotional Acts 9:1-2 1  And Saul, yet breathing out threatenings and slaughter against the disciples of the Lord, went unto the high priest, 2  And desired of him letters to Damascus to the synagogues, that if he found any of this way, whether they were men or women, he might bring them bound unto Jerusalem. People can be cold! They can careless about your feelings, careless about how they treat you. Emotionless. Lacking Affection!!Just like the snow it can be harsh dealing with the cold winters, the ice roads, the shoveling. Thank God i dont have to deal with the snow anymore because I moved. Yes the Snow is beautiful I just don't want to deal with its coldness. Its like when you love someone you may love them but it gets old dealing with their coldness. Why do you have to be so cold. Why can't you love me? Why do you call me out my name? Why do you not call? or hug me? Or kiss me? Why tr...