Sabotaging your relationship!
Sabotaging My Relationships!
Proverbs 14:1 The wise woman builds her house, but with her own hands the foolish one tears hers down.
sabotage :deliberately destroy, damage, or obstruct something
I have had commitment issue for a while. You can say I would be the woman who would tear hear house down with my own hands. Sabotaging it because of fear of whats on the other side. Like if a man really loves me its hard to get past that commitment stage the one its cute at first. Yet then I have a million and one reason of why I can't do this even if your amazing!!! Alot of them start with what if...divorce, single parenting, unhappiness, cheating, being take for granted,or them just walking out. Often I want to leave before they leave so the second i think well they are giving up on me inside its not over for me because I wouldnt really go anywhere. I just want to win the fact that the might leave me..and I dont want to look stupid. Yet in the end i do because I sabotage the relationship. Looking for something to be wrong even if nothings wrong and my partners happy and in love. I dont want to do it I want to get past that place where i can know i am stable i a relationship and i have nothing to worry about that the person loves me and isnt going anywhere the thing is how do i get to a place where i believe they won't aren't leaving? And i am really what they want and won't just leave me for someone they think is "better".
What if you don't want me anymore?
2 Kings 13:15-17 Then Amnon hated her with intense hatred. In fact, he hated her more than he had loved her. Amnon said to her, “Get up and get out!”16 “No!” she said to him. “Sending me away would be a greater wrong than what you have already done to me.”But he refused to listen to her. 17 He called his personal servant and said, “Get this woman out of my sight and bolt the door after her.”
Amnon should have never been lusting over his own sister. Yet the point im trying to make is once he got what he wanted he didn't want her anymore. My fear of commitment is what if i get so deep in the relationship and ten years go by and they don't want me anymore. He sent her away. What if i invest my time and my life into this have kids and build a home and then one day you send me away tell me to get out. Divorce me. I dont want my kids to suffer but most importantly I don't think emotionally i can handle that. My prayer at 5 years old was to never be a single parent. Would I have to not have kids and just be married. These are the things I think about what if you kick me out I don't ever want to go back to my family. I can't watch a child suffer with just one parent. Its so sad. What if we get like that couple that lays in two different rooms in two different beds. You can't stand the sight of looking at me. WE are just together to be together and unhappy. Really I can't live like that! No More
Destroying Your Own House.
Hosea 2:2 “Bring charges against your mother, bring charges;
For she is not My wife, nor am I her Husband!
Let her put away her harlotries from her sight,
And her adulteries from between her breasts;
Hosea wife destroyed their own house. She played the harlot. She tore it down with her own hands. Brick by brick! She had no one to blame but herself. God gave her a family and she decided to go out and play the harlot. It happens to alot of people they don't know how to handle what God gave us. We live in fear! We have our own struggles! We worship other Idols. How ever we do it with hurtful words, hurtful actions, from fear. We destroy our homes brick by brick. No one can be to blame but ourselves.
Sabotage Hello building Relationship
Proverbs 14:1 The wise woman builds her house, but with her own hands the foolish one tears hers down.
I have been putting my condo together. I want it to look nice. I take alot of time and effort into how i want it to look. Yet its like my relationships what if i put together my apartment just to tear it down. Instead of sabotaging my relationships i should think of ways to better make it look and grow to be better. It doesnt have to all come together overnight but work on it piece by peace and stop worry how its all going to come together and all the what ifs. I should just leave the worry to God and take the steps of faith to build and grow. To see how things are going to work out before i decide that its not going to work out. It will be hard but I am going to think more positive and hope for the best when its comes to my commitment issue and sabotaging my relationships. Yet I will overcome my what if fears and embrace relationships.
Proverbs 14:1 The wise woman builds her house, but with her own hands the foolish one tears hers down.
sabotage :deliberately destroy, damage, or obstruct something
I have had commitment issue for a while. You can say I would be the woman who would tear hear house down with my own hands. Sabotaging it because of fear of whats on the other side. Like if a man really loves me its hard to get past that commitment stage the one its cute at first. Yet then I have a million and one reason of why I can't do this even if your amazing!!! Alot of them start with what if...divorce, single parenting, unhappiness, cheating, being take for granted,or them just walking out. Often I want to leave before they leave so the second i think well they are giving up on me inside its not over for me because I wouldnt really go anywhere. I just want to win the fact that the might leave me..and I dont want to look stupid. Yet in the end i do because I sabotage the relationship. Looking for something to be wrong even if nothings wrong and my partners happy and in love. I dont want to do it I want to get past that place where i can know i am stable i a relationship and i have nothing to worry about that the person loves me and isnt going anywhere the thing is how do i get to a place where i believe they won't aren't leaving? And i am really what they want and won't just leave me for someone they think is "better".
What if you don't want me anymore?
2 Kings 13:15-17 Then Amnon hated her with intense hatred. In fact, he hated her more than he had loved her. Amnon said to her, “Get up and get out!”16 “No!” she said to him. “Sending me away would be a greater wrong than what you have already done to me.”But he refused to listen to her. 17 He called his personal servant and said, “Get this woman out of my sight and bolt the door after her.”
Amnon should have never been lusting over his own sister. Yet the point im trying to make is once he got what he wanted he didn't want her anymore. My fear of commitment is what if i get so deep in the relationship and ten years go by and they don't want me anymore. He sent her away. What if i invest my time and my life into this have kids and build a home and then one day you send me away tell me to get out. Divorce me. I dont want my kids to suffer but most importantly I don't think emotionally i can handle that. My prayer at 5 years old was to never be a single parent. Would I have to not have kids and just be married. These are the things I think about what if you kick me out I don't ever want to go back to my family. I can't watch a child suffer with just one parent. Its so sad. What if we get like that couple that lays in two different rooms in two different beds. You can't stand the sight of looking at me. WE are just together to be together and unhappy. Really I can't live like that! No More
Destroying Your Own House.
Hosea 2:2 “Bring charges against your mother, bring charges;
For she is not My wife, nor am I her Husband!
Let her put away her harlotries from her sight,
And her adulteries from between her breasts;
Hosea wife destroyed their own house. She played the harlot. She tore it down with her own hands. Brick by brick! She had no one to blame but herself. God gave her a family and she decided to go out and play the harlot. It happens to alot of people they don't know how to handle what God gave us. We live in fear! We have our own struggles! We worship other Idols. How ever we do it with hurtful words, hurtful actions, from fear. We destroy our homes brick by brick. No one can be to blame but ourselves.
Sabotage Hello building Relationship
Proverbs 14:1 The wise woman builds her house, but with her own hands the foolish one tears hers down.
I have been putting my condo together. I want it to look nice. I take alot of time and effort into how i want it to look. Yet its like my relationships what if i put together my apartment just to tear it down. Instead of sabotaging my relationships i should think of ways to better make it look and grow to be better. It doesnt have to all come together overnight but work on it piece by peace and stop worry how its all going to come together and all the what ifs. I should just leave the worry to God and take the steps of faith to build and grow. To see how things are going to work out before i decide that its not going to work out. It will be hard but I am going to think more positive and hope for the best when its comes to my commitment issue and sabotaging my relationships. Yet I will overcome my what if fears and embrace relationships.
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