I Stopped Believing In Love

You know I love you.. Do I? John 21:15 15  When they had finished eating, Jesus said to Simon Peter,  “Simon son of John, do you love me more than these?” “Yes, Lord,” he said, “you know that I love you.”Jesus said,  “Feed my lambs.” It's one thing to say you love someone its another to actually love someone. Ive had many people say they love me over the years but love is something you do not just say.  So as much as they said they loved me it didnt matter because their do was not showing love. But you know i love you ummm no i dont actually. I dont know that you love me at all. I have no security in knowing. Nothing says hey i love you and actually makes me believe it. Love is an Action 1 Corinthians 13: 4  Love is patient,  love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.   5  It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking,  it is not easily angered,  it keeps no record of wrongs.   6...

I want your attention! attention 1 . notice taken of someone or something; the regarding of someone or something as interesting or important.  1 Samuel 3  4-5  the Lord called out, “Samuel! Samuel!” “Yes?” Samuel replied. “What is it?” He jumped up and ran to Eli. “Here I am. What do you want?” he asked. Hello, im here. Hello do you see me?  do you notice me? im here! can i get your time, can we talk hang out. I dont want to force you or make you feel like you have to be here or have to hang out with me. But hey im here.Im here if you didnt know. Im just pretend im living breathing ! Hello! I just want your attention. Hey yeah you! 

The Chase Genesis 29:18  Jacob loved Rachel. And he said,  “I will serve you seven years for your younger daughter Rachel.” 19  Laban said, “It is better that I give her to you than that I should give her to any other man; stay with me.”   20  So Jacob  served seven years for Rachel, and they seemed to him but a few days because of the love he had for her. pursuit 1 . the action of following or pursuing someone or something. I love the chase its my favorite part of dating. I love all the good morning beautifuls and the just thinking about you text. The ill pick you up at 7 to go out. When am i going to see you again. The tell me more about you and the interest a man has when he first starts to pursuit you. Its the chase. He is the hunter and you are his prey and he wants you. I love it. He's willing to bend over backwards to make sure you are his and he can have you. Its the best part of dating because the man ...

Being Faithful to a Cheater Proverbs 11:1 The Lord hates cheating and delights in honesty. cheater a person who acts dishonestly in order to gain an advantage. I remember waiting for phone calls that were not going to come because they were going to someone else. Not me I wasn't receiving calls because they went to someone else. I remember waiting on text but they were not coming because they were going to someone else. I remember being hidden like a game. I remember begging for love and affection that wasn't going to come because it was going to someone else. All the while i was being faithful and dedicated and waiting. All the while i wasn't looking at other men. All the while i was pleading....crying myself to sleep. Work home work home work home. I didn't want to do anything but go to work and home. I felt empty alone and honestly i just wanted to get on some type of those sleeping pills so that i could just sleep the rest of my days away...