Being Faithful to a Cheater

Being Faithful to a Cheater

Proverbs 11:1 The Lord hates cheating and delights in honesty.

cheater
a person who acts dishonestly in order to gain an advantage.

I remember waiting for phone calls that were not going to come because they were going to someone else. Not me I wasn't receiving calls because they went to someone else. I remember waiting on text but they were not coming because they were going to someone else. I remember being hidden like a game. I remember begging for love and affection that wasn't going to come because it was going to someone else. All the while i was being faithful and dedicated and waiting. All the while i wasn't looking at other men. All the while i was pleading....crying myself to sleep. Work home work home work home. I didn't want to do anything but go to work and home. I felt empty alone and honestly i just wanted to get on some type of those sleeping pills so that i could just sleep the rest of my days away to escape my reality but i didn't want to use a pill to cope with my pain. So i just lived through it. I knew he was cheating but i wasn't cheating back i just went to work and came home i was in love



I Didnt want Revenge

1 Peter 3:9 Don’t repay evil for evil. Don’t snap back at those who say unkind things about you. Instead, pray for God’s help for them, for we are to be kind to others, and God will bless us for it.


I was cheated on and honestly i didnt want revenge. Trust me when i first found out i had a easy conversation saying why? I know im not the easiest woman i have alot of anxiety, and have alot of fear. I just wanted to be loved. I just wanted to understand why the love he had to offer someone else he wasnt offering me. They had time but it wasnt for me. So we parted i never fought the girl thats drama i confronted him as the man who knew better. I went home and i died in side. I said to God i want to offer forgiveness to them. And i died in side and i questioned myself as a woman. I hurt because I had changed so much in life all for someone to not find me good enough. I just questioned why i wasnt good enough and i didnt seek revenge. I just died inside.

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