I Stopped Believing In Love

I was tired of being everyone's joke Butt of a joke the reason for or aim of a joke, especially when it is a person Luke 15:16 16 And he would fain have filled his belly with the husks that the swine did eat: and no man gave unto him. I can tell you the day i lost it. I kept blacking out from being high and drunk. Your an embarrassment they said. Never going to change. And they laughed. And today i dont mind hearing that laugh because its a reminder that im not the butt end of their jokes anymore i became somebody. Despite of their jokes they ainy laughing no more because i became somebody. I changed Chasing a men who dont love you????? Hosea 2:7 7 She will chase after her lovers but not catch them;     she will look for them but not find them. Then she will say,     ‘I will go back to my husband as at first,     for then I was better off than now.’ Its embarrassing chasing after someone who will never really love you. Its degrading. ...

She'll never find out Luke 8:17 For nothing is secret, that shall not be made manifest; neither any thing hid, that shall not be known and come abroad He was cheating on me. I bet he never tought i wouldnt find out. But i did because God told me. It broke my heart finding out the truth. I thought he really loved me i thought he cared and the whole while he was planning a life with someone else. And the truth came to light and it hurt. But it was better then the lie of believing he loved me He was wrong i did find out Luke 12:2 Nothing is covered up that will not be revealed, or hidden that will not be known. There she was she opened the door . oh you must be his girlfriend and she answered yes. Yes because she didn't know that he had me. Yes because he was starting a life with her. Yes because what we had was a lie. And he thought his lie to me would never get out. Id keep loving him while he lied. While he loved someone elses. And his lie destroyed me it hurt me so...

He left me there to die! Luke 10:30-31 And Jesus answering said, A certain man went down from Jerusalem to Jericho, and fell among thieves, which stripped him of his raiment, and wounded him, and departed, leaving him half dead.31 And by chance there came down a certain priest that way: and when he saw him, he passed by on the other side. Have you ever just had life situations get you down? Yet when life happens there will be on lookers who will leave you right there? Its not as if you choose to get in the situation the situation happen to you. It was due to life!Yet they watched, maybe they laughed, maybe they saw what happened but they looked the other way.Never once extending a hand to help you up. Just leaving you there to just die. He caused the pain and he walked away! 2 Samuel 13:15-17 Then Amnon hated her exceedingly; so that the hatred wherewith he hated her was greater than the love wherewith he had loved her. And Amnon said unto her, Arise, be gone.16 And she said ...