Im not a joke

I was tired of being everyone's joke

Butt of a joke
the reason for or aim of a joke, especially when it is a person

Luke 15:16

16 And he would fain have filled his belly with the husks that the swine did eat: and no man gave unto him.

I can tell you the day i lost it. I kept blacking out from being high and drunk. Your an embarrassment they said. Never going to change. And they laughed. And today i dont mind hearing that laugh because its a reminder that im not the butt end of their jokes anymore i became somebody. Despite of their jokes they ainy laughing no more because i became somebody. I changed



Chasing a men who dont love you?????

Hosea 2:7

7 She will chase after her lovers but not catch them;
    she will look for them but not find them.
Then she will say,
    ‘I will go back to my husband as at first,
    for then I was better off than now.’

Its embarrassing chasing after someone who will never really love you. Its degrading. You feel stupid and everyone knows how stupid you are. Knowing well there she goes again loving another person who dont love her. Stupid me. You convince yourself that someone actually loves you. That they actually care but they dont. Just another booty call or another Girl to string along. While all their homeboy laugh at you. I will never catch myself chasing after a man who doesnt love me ever again to be the butt end of his every of their jokes.

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