I hated the snow until you

                       I Hated The Snow Until You

in·com·pa·ra·ble  

/inˈkämp(ə)rəbəl/

Adjective Without an equal in quality or extent; matchless.

I been reading a lot about the prodigal son In Luke 15 and how he left the father to do his own thing in the world. Made me wonder how many day's did the father miss the son? Everyday?Every hour? Every minute? Every second? Did he cry at night, or see things that remind him of his son and begin to weep or laugh? I know he probably tried to put it in the back of his mind and act like everything was okay but was it really okay? When his friends asked about his son did he play it off with a smile like everythings fine?Or did he miss him more than anything in the world and just want his son back? I mean he had another son but this was his son. This son was incomparable to the other because they are two different people made in two different ways.

 I use to hate the snow until I meet you. God told me that when the snow falls each snow flake is made different. No matter how much you try to compare them you can't. They are one of a kind! Even when they land with the other snow flakes they all look the same but in the midst of all of them that one snow flake is still incomparable.I lost my best friend and lately it's been so hard to bare I can go through out my day but it's just not the same. I tried to replace their company only by texting someone else  but it's just not the same. How can you replace someone who is irreplaceable ?I remember the day they told me they love'd the pizza's i made. Now we all know that everyone cooks different and you can never really imitate someone elses cooking because it requires their special touch.Thats how it kind of feels you can replace someone with the next someone but their special touch won't be same as the one your replacing.

                                      Living With Regrets

I wonder did the prodigal's father ever regret just giving him his inheritance and letting him go.Here you want it so bad, you want to live for the world. Go take it i won't stop you. Was it a bad choice? You love the world so much well have it but know that i love you. I gave you everything that meant anything to me. I worked hard for your inheritance but If thats what you want by all means I can't stop you or make you stay. He must of kept thinking I should have just stopped him. Maybe there was something more I could do. I offered him everything I had but he still left with it all. The father wasnt stupid he was spending it all on riotous  living!

You sit there and wonder do they ever think about what if i would have just did this differently. What if i would have said all the right things. I remember he use to tell me when you were here you were fine. Yet everytime i'd let my fear come over me id want to leave until the day he got tired and said you wanna go just leave. I didn't really want to go i was just afraid. What if he didn't love me like he said he did. What if he was just the same. I begged to him to let me stay but he had made up his mind thats what you wanted so bad then fine leave. I wonder in my mind does he ever regret the day he told me to just leave. I wonder if he regrets that day just as much as i do. Because things have never been the same since then!



After that It always felt like I was chasing after someone. The more I tried to keep up the more it seemed like they were slipping away. Come back! Where are you going? Please come back.  I tried everything possible to try to make them stay yet it never seemed good enough. You can't make someone stay when they are already out the door. The prodigal knew his choice the second he asked for his inheritance so didn't the father but what was the father going to do? Maybe there was something more i could of said or done. Maybe I could have been a better friend!Yet it was to late! This is the part where you pray that second chances are real like the second chances that are like when you first met someone before the scars, the ups and the downs, before the battle began and someone walked away.Sometimes you wonder when someone walks away? Are you the only one left hurting? I mean they walked away and just kept moving on with their life and never looked back. People will never let you see there real feelings they will smile it off and keep it moving. Make excuses of why they just can't be there for you. Like my life is better without you!Yet your sitting there like well did you value me the same because my life isn't the same without you. 

I made a mistake, and I regret it everyday! I just want my friend back!

                                 Just Another Notch in your Belt

Just another Notch in your belt.What a horrible saying! I remember the day I heard him say I want to be your belt. Not just another notch. Yet to hold your pants up so they don't keep falling for the wrong guy.I heard it loud and clear but did I really understand what he was saying? I want you to be my belt! I need you to be my belt!Just be my belt!I just don't know how to let you be that. I counted someone who was my real friend as just another guy who was here for one thing. I figured id just group him in with the rest because I mean they all look the same and end up leaving the same dent in my life and end up in my past.Yet he was more than just another man I even prayed to God that we'd see forever!That we'd walk the streets of gold together! That I'd never have to leave him behind!

In Luke 15 there's this parable about this lost sheep! I mean the Shepard had so many other sheep. Yet one of them strayed and the Shepard left the others just for that one. That one was so special to him. Yes they were all sheep but this one was his too! He wasn't like the others. He stood out because when he was missing the Shepard knew he was gone. He left everything behind just for that one!He wasn't just another number but he was more!

Think about Jacob as he fell in love with Rachael. Then Laban the father gave him Leah but he didn't work for Leah's heart. Jacob worked 7 years for Rachael. It didn't matter who the father gave him if it wasn't Rachael he wasn't going to be happy until he got her!No one compared to her! There was just something about her that stood out from everyone else!Yet no one ever thinks about Leah and the Maidservants they just became another notch in Jacobs belt. God gave them children because they would never be loved like Rachael would be loved. Rachael got her children last in life because someone already loved her and would love her more than anything.Someone accepted her! Yet Leah got tons of gifts in life because God saw she was unloved and not truly accepted like Rachael.

                                               

              Go Again Love

a·gain 

 

/əˈgen/

Adverb Another time; once more Returning to a previous position or condition

Hosea 3

 Then the Lord said to me, “Go again, love a woman who is loved by a lover and is committing adultery, just like the love of the Lord for the children of Israel, who look to other gods and love the raisin cakes of the pagans.”

² So I bought her for myself for fifteen shekels of silver, and one and one-half homers of barley. ³ And I said to her, “You shall stay with me many days; you shall not play the harlot, nor shall you have a man—so, too, will I be toward you.”

The story of Hosea is crazy! God told him to Marry a prostitute. It was to show Hosea the love God has for his people when they go out in the world and worship other things. I mean knowing my past that's not an easy thing to do. When I was in that place in my life I was unfaithful, broken, pretty mean, angry, and bitter. I didn't want to have a committed relationship. I didn't want to be faithful to God! I wanted to do my own thing. Live my own way however I wanted to. Yet Hosea loved his wife still despite of where she had been. It must of been hard I mean watching anyone you love walk away to love another is hard. It hurts bad it cuts deep. Yet Hosea stayed faithful like God because that's how God loves even when those we love stray when they come back we are to love them again. Just as God does he loves us again like we never left. Hosea said stay with me many day's don't play the harlot nor take any other man but I will be your's. I will be your's! That's so powerful! I will be yours! He payed the price for someone who didn't deserve his love. Yet he saw something valuable he saw his wife (bride). Not the harlot! Not the sin! Not the pain! Not the other men. Yet he saw his wife! No one compared to her despite her faults, I bet no one smiled like her, or laughed like her, or even cook like her. She was one of a kind made just for him and he was going to love her!

You will always be welcomed back here!



rec·on·cile  (rkn-sl)

To bring (oneself) to accept:

Luke 15:17-32

¹⁷ And when he came to himself, he said, How many hired servants of my father's have bread enough and to spare, and I perish with hunger!

¹⁸ I will arise and go to my father, and will say unto him, Father, I have sinned against heaven, and before thee,

¹⁹ And am no more worthy to be called thy son: make me as one of thy hired servants.

²⁰ And he arose, and came to his father. But when he was yet a great way off, his father saw him, and had compassion, and ran, and fell on his neck, and kissed him.

When the prodigal son came to accept that what the father had for him he went home and his father accepted him. When you really love someone no matter how much they stray away when they return back to you your willing to accept them no matter what happened between you and them. You want that closeness that bond you once had. You want that relationship that should have been but something came in and corrupted it. Maybe someone took advantage of your love or what you had to offer.You use to be my dog and I use to be your bro (even though im a girl lol). Yet if you want that relationship enough your willing to do anything for it.

God sent his only son to die for people to reestablish a relationship between him and his people because he loves them. Jesus Christ Died on the cross for your sins because he didn't see your faults or your wicked deeds but because he saw someone he loves drowning in sin and needing a hand out. So he died for you so that you could be reconciled back to God! So that you could love again! Even in a world where your just another social security number Jesus see's you as a snow flake! No one compares to you! So he died just for you because when the time comes for either heaven or hell losing you will be devastating to him because your incomparable!

The snow starts looking beautiful when you know each flake is different!