I Stopped Believing In Love

I was tired of being everyone's joke Butt of a joke the reason for or aim of a joke, especially when it is a person Luke 15:16 16 And he would fain have filled his belly with the husks that the swine did eat: and no man gave unto him. I can tell you the day i lost it. I kept blacking out from being high and drunk. Your an embarrassment they said. Never going to change. And they laughed. And today i dont mind hearing that laugh because its a reminder that im not the butt end of their jokes anymore i became somebody. Despite of their jokes they ainy laughing no more because i became somebody. I changed Chasing a men who dont love you????? Hosea 2:7 7 She will chase after her lovers but not catch them;     she will look for them but not find them. Then she will say,     ‘I will go back to my husband as at first,     for then I was better off than now.’ Its embarrassing chasing after someone who will never really love you. Its degrading. ...

She'll never find out Luke 8:17 For nothing is secret, that shall not be made manifest; neither any thing hid, that shall not be known and come abroad He was cheating on me. I bet he never tought i wouldnt find out. But i did because God told me. It broke my heart finding out the truth. I thought he really loved me i thought he cared and the whole while he was planning a life with someone else. And the truth came to light and it hurt. But it was better then the lie of believing he loved me He was wrong i did find out Luke 12:2 Nothing is covered up that will not be revealed, or hidden that will not be known. There she was she opened the door . oh you must be his girlfriend and she answered yes. Yes because she didn't know that he had me. Yes because he was starting a life with her. Yes because what we had was a lie. And he thought his lie to me would never get out. Id keep loving him while he lied. While he loved someone elses. And his lie destroyed me it hurt me so...

He left me there to die! Luke 10:30-31 And Jesus answering said, A certain man went down from Jerusalem to Jericho, and fell among thieves, which stripped him of his raiment, and wounded him, and departed, leaving him half dead.31 And by chance there came down a certain priest that way: and when he saw him, he passed by on the other side. Have you ever just had life situations get you down? Yet when life happens there will be on lookers who will leave you right there? Its not as if you choose to get in the situation the situation happen to you. It was due to life!Yet they watched, maybe they laughed, maybe they saw what happened but they looked the other way.Never once extending a hand to help you up. Just leaving you there to just die. He caused the pain and he walked away! 2 Samuel 13:15-17 Then Amnon hated her exceedingly; so that the hatred wherewith he hated her was greater than the love wherewith he had loved her. And Amnon said unto her, Arise, be gone.16 And she said ...

Villains don't get Happy Ending! villain  a character whose evil actions or motives are important to the plot MAtthew 27:3-5 Then Judas, which had betrayed him, when he saw that he was condemned, repented himself, and brought again the thirty pieces of silver to the chief priests and elders,4 Saying, I have sinned in that I have betrayed the innocent blood. And they said, What is that to us? see thou to that.5 And he cast down the pieces of silver in the temple, and departed, and went and hanged himself. They always say villains don't get happy endings. Do you know its harder for someone who had a rough past to push forward because people who didn't will try anyway possible to hinder them from moving forward. Judas had a chance to be forgiven by Jesus yet he choose to kill himself from shame! In any story the villian always loses. So what happens in life when you are one of the bad people who have had a bad past and haven't done everything right can you still ha...

He's not a Christian Acts 26:28 28 Then Agrippa said to Paul, “You almost persuade me to become a Christian.” Hes not a Christian. He was almost persuaded but he wasnt. Almost is no. Its either you are or you arent but there is no inbetween. Like there is heaven or hell no inbetween its either you believe in Jesus and are going heaven or you don't and your going to hell. He wasnt a christian You cant be together 2 Corinthians 6:14 14 Do not be yoked together with unbelievers. For what do righteousness and wickedness have in common? Or what fellowship can light have with darkness? You cant be together if your going in two different directions . its like being and an ex drug addict dating a drug dealer. A christian dating a non christian doesnt work. At some point you will fall a ex drug addict would end up back on drugs. Your going down two different roads. You cant be together He is a Christian Romans 1:16 16 For I am not ashamed of the gospel, because it is...

It only felt good for the moment Hebrews 11:24-25 24 By faith Moses, when he was come to years, refused to be called the son of Pharaoh's daughter;25 Choosing rather to suffer affliction with the people of God, than to enjoy the pleasures of sin for a season; I know i shouldnt of done it. But it felt so good. Only for the moment though. I wanted meat. And ive given up meat to start a new journey. Yet it made me think of our sin for the moment it feels good but after you end up feeling bad and with regret. What did i do why did i give into my flesh. Yes i enjoyed the moment but it doesn't help me with the bigger thing im trying to accomplish. I cheated a·dul·ter·y voluntary sexual intercourse between a married person and a person who is not his or her spouse. Hebrews 13:4 Let marriage be held in honor among all, and let the marriage bed be undefiled, for God will judge the sexually immoral and adulterous I know i made a commitment. I said i would do what i said...

I trust him with my life 1 John 4:18  There is no fear in love, but perfect love casts out fear. For fear has to do with punishment, and whoever fears has not been perfected in love. There is only one person in this world that makes me feel safe. Cuz people scare me. But this one person knows me in and out. They understand me. They know how to comfort me. They listen. And help ease the pain. I know they love me. And if i had to trust anyone with my life for the rest of my life it be them because i know theyed love me. And i trust my life with them. From Fear to Love  from indicating the point in space at which a journey, motion, or action starts. 1 John 4:18 18 There is no fear in love; but perfect love casteth out fear: because fear hath torment. He that feareth is not made perfect in love. Moving from fear to love in your life is a big thing. It is a drastic change because fear hinders!!! Yet love allows you to grow. Fear you can't move ...