Tried to put out my love for you but it aint working!

                   Tried to put out my love for you but it aint working! 

Song of Solomon 8:7
Many waters cannot quench love, neither can the floods drown it: if a man would give all the substance of his house for love, it would utterly be contemned.

When I was younger I said Id never give my love away. Never believed people loved people. Never really believed in love. Yet What happens when you finally find thatone you want to spend the rest of your life with. To have that feeling that no matter how much you try to tell yourself maybe this is just a phase. This can't be.. nah my mind is playing tricks on me. So i try to shake it off yet daily ....but I realize I can't. For someone who stopped believing in love... I'M IN LOVE!!!



                 If it aint you it aint working! 
Genesis 29:21-25 Then Jacob said to Laban, “Give me my wife that I may go in to her, for my time is completed.” 22 So Laban gathered together all the people of the place and made a feast. 23 But in the evening he took his daughter Leah and brought her to Jacob, and he went in to her. 24 (Laban gave[b] his female servant Zilpah to his daughter Leah to be her servant.) 25 And in the morning, behold, it was Leah! And Jacob said to Laban, “What is this you have done to me? Did I not serve with you for Rachel? Why then have you deceived me?”

Incomparable people!!!! Ever try to replace someone with another person it doesnt work! Laban probably didn't know anything about love because he thought leah would satisfy Jacobs love for Rachael. That didn't matter. Trust me when you love someone your love for them can't be compared by anyone elses its one of a kind! They were even sisters but it didn't matter. LEah was not Rachael!! I could Imagine Jacob going to rachael to let her know if it isn't you then it is not working!! He was in love and worked another 7 years for her love!......I am the type of woman who use to count all men the same but they are not you just have to find that one... I'M IN LOVE!!! 

It is dangerous to push away What God has put together!

Ruth 1:14-18 Then they lifted up their voices and wept again; and Orpah kissed her mother-in-law, but Ruth clung to her.

15 And she said, “Look, your sister-in-law has gone back to her people and to her gods; return after your sister-in-law.” 16 But Ruth said:

“Entreat me not to leave you,
Or to turn back from following after you;
For wherever you go, I will go;
And wherever you lodge, I will lodge;
Your people shall be my people,
And your God, my God.
17 Where you die, I will die,
And there will I be buried.
The Lord do so to me, and more also,
If anything but death parts you and me.”
18 When she saw that she was determined to go with her, she stopped speaking to her.

I remember the day God I asked God about you! And he told he it is dangerous to push people out your life that God has brought together. I was shocked confused. Yet I was so happy it was you! Who else would I rather spend my life with other then you! I cried I joy, I regret of not waiting when I was young, I still needed to heal, We shared ups and downs, Tears and laughs, Yet it has never changed how I feel towards you! Yet all the while fear tried to get me to push you away time and time again. I feel like Naomi when someone wanted to show her they cared and loved her she was so use to losing everything she decided to push away someone who she was meant to have in her life. I changed so much in the last two years just to understand love after a lifestyle of just sexual relationships, abuse and not understand love was real. To learning how to understand love, heal, just to learn to love and enjoy life once again. I found out it is dangerous to push away what God has put together but .....after years of feeling numb to love ...IM IN LOVE!

I Believe In Love, I am In Love!

1 John 4:16

 And we have known and believed the love that God hath to us. God is love; and he that dwelleth in love dwelleth in God, and God in him.

My blog is called I Stopped believing in love. Yet I have spent a this last whole year with the Lord trying to figure out if people really love! Sounds stupid right to be 23 and not believe love is real well that has been my life. THe bible says God is love and when I gave my life to Christ I soon found out he was love. Yet to believe that a human being could actually love you well thats another story. Yet in order to know something to be true you have to believe! BEcause if you don't believe it to be true then you wont be able to recieve it for what it really is. Think about the Children of israel alot of them never made it to the promise land because they didn't believe it was a land flowing with milk and honey rather a place filled with giants. Yet Joshua and Caleb saw it for what it really was a land flowing with milk and honey. You can not understand that God is love unless you see God as love. Until you believe for yourself that he is love. If not you will remain blind to love. Sometimes we have love right in front of our face and don't even realize its love until its to late. So open your Eyes believe in love!