Covenant

A Single Echo di·vi·sion  

Noun The action of separating something into parts

In life when people split it can be hard. Gods been working on my hard heartness and for the first time in my life i know im in love! There's no shadow of a doubt you just know. I actually feel like the numbness is gone.  It feels so freeing to actually feel tender and soft inside in these places. The hardest part now is living with the consequences that in trying to heal and not understanding how broken I was and that I didn't know alot of things I hurt the one person I had feelings for under all my hard heartedness. Im so surprised I could even have feelings for someone now after seeing how broken I was. God could only use them because I didn't care much for people.Yet under all that hard heartedness he became my motivation to break free amazing person or I probably would have never had the motivation to want to. So now Im here and free. Yet when he left we were so broken it was like living on two different cliffs and a valley in between! Hello over there was like the echos that flew over across the valley. Yet whispers of feeling defeated like I couldn't make you happy were the echo's of reply. Yet he did because not even a month later after our split im free.I'm not numb anymore, I know that people love, that I am worthy to be loved, to show off, and not just play the harlot. The crazy part thats how my life always works when they are gone Im better now but when they are here im broken. It's like I never really got a real chance to love without all that poison in me. I've been doing good living life, functioning well since he left cuz usually my whole world crumbs(growth). But last night It hit me like God usually he calls by now but it seems like he's never coming back! It hit me hard. I feel like I ran a race to heal to have a life with him only to lose the race in the end. Yes I am free but what is running a race if you only lose in the end? I mean I won but I still loss. I feel like Jacob only to get Leah! I dont want leah I want Rachael! I didn't work so hard to actually want to be in love with someone for them to no longer be here! Last night I cried a real cry over this and all I could say is God now that im healed I may never get my friend back. Sometime I wonder if God could have used someone else so that he still be here because I tried for 3 years not to date him so he'd be around! Now it's like im on one side of the cliff yelling across and there's no one standing on the other side to yell back.  Hello, im better now im not numb anymore, hello.......is anybody there?

There Is Hope

Romans 8:28

 And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.

The other day I found out the color purple represents hope! That's my favorite color! I'm hoping that things will turn out the best that maybe one day we can reconcile.  This seems like the same thing that once happened to me back when I got saved but now God has allowed me to rebuild a relationship with someone I once thought I lost forever. So I know that with God there is hope!The bible says

Proverbs 3:5-6

 Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding.

See I have learned to trust in God and I have watched him heal my life and heal others around me. Restore relationships that were once broken and change situations over night! To really place trust in him even when things don't look like they are okay! Look at the Prodigal Son in Luke 15! Imagine being a parent and your son just leave's they probably had there ups and downs. The father let the prodigal go but I know that there wasnt a day that the father didn't miss the prodigal son. He wanted them to be close again. Then the day came were turning of the story came. Where the hope came! The prodigal lost everything but if he didn't lose it all he would have never came home! The father was so merry the bible says happy that his son had came home. The events turned out for the best and they were able to reconcile. See that's like when we come back to reconcile with God he's happy you can't save someone who doesn't want to be saved but always hope that maybe oneday they will come back one day things will change! Sometimes it never happens because life goes on but I won't give up hope!

                                                      And So I Hope

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A set of two regarded as a unit. Matthew 19:4-6 And He answered and said to them, “Have you not read that He who made them at the beginning ‘made them male and female,’ 5 and said, ‘For this reason a man shall leave his father and mother and be joined to his wife, and the two shall become one flesh’? 6 So then, they are no longer two but one flesh. Therefore what God has joined together, let not man separate.” God is a healer he can mend all things that are broken like a mechanic. Yet sometimes what God has meant to be together breaks due to things that happen in life! Yet like I said before there is hope God can still mend those things in life that look unfix able. We look at Adam and Eve in the Garden after sin it looked like things would never go back the same but God sent Jesus to die on the cross to reconcile us back to God! Ezekiel 37:21-25 And say unto them, Thus saith the Lord God; Behold, I will take the children of Israel from among the heathen, whither they be gone, and will gather them on every side, and bring them into their own land: 22 And I will make them one nation in the land upon the mountains of Israel; and one king shall be king to them all: and they shall be no more two nations, neither shall they be divided into two kingdoms any more at all. See God was going to take these two nations that had split and were divided and bring them back together so they could be one.  He was going to take two and make them one again. So that they could dwell in their own land. Then once they were together again the bible says they shall be not divided into two kingdoms anymore at all. God was going to restore then back together! If God can do that for two nations imagine just for a family, friendship, a marriage. They would now go back to functioning as one again!  Ask yourself is there anything to hard for God? Peace Ezekiel 37:26 Moreover I will make a covenant of peace with them; it shall be an everlasting covenant with them: and I will place them, and multiply them, and will set my sanctuary in the midst of them for evermore. Peace  b : a state of security After destruction we get so afraid that things won't last long that they will go back to being the same but God made a covenant with peace after! Whenever God makes a covenant he will not break it. We think about after Noah's day when God flooded the earth! The dove came back with the olive branch. Then God made a covenant with the rainbow to never flood the earth again. It's a promise stating that destruction like this will never happen like this again! See it says its an everlasting covenant forever! He wanted to prosper them, to multiply them for them to have peace! It may rain and storm outside bad but the storm is never still the same as the one that just past! You can have safety and security in knowing that you have been reconciled! When we come back to God we have safety in knowing that God love's us and we know can have that close bond again. That no one can take that away. Even the prodigals brother tried to convince the father that he wasn't deserving of reconciliation. Yet the father still loved his son and still celebrated his homecoming! When you are reconciled back together  with God and you have the covenant of peace that things from here forward will never be the same. Yet only change is going to come!